I DO ENOUGH. Now is the time to take what God is giving me and RELAX AND TAKE IT EASY. WE DON’T STRUGGLE.
It is not true that the more I do, the better I am. It is not true that the more I suffer, the more worth it it will be. It is not true that the harder I hustler, the grander the prize. It simply isn’t fucking true, and I don’t know why I keep forgetting.
Perhaps it’s society begging me to do more, sell more, grow more, be more. Perhaps it’s the messaging from growing up that nobody will notice me unless I do more. Perhaps it’s the message I cemented myself from watching people never stop. Perhaps it’s just part of my personality – I function at a high capacity, at high volume, at high everything. It’s part of my make-up. And that make-up has given me incredible views, huge opportunities, and a lot of bandwidth for success at a young age. That make-up has helped me accelerate when others slow down, and pushed me past finish lines I couldn’t see at all.
That make-up has also slowed me down. It has slowed my nurturing of self and getting comfortable within my own skin. That make-up has kept people further away from me, and in the past kept me further away from myself. That make-up has given me injury, emotional devastation, and stress. And, it’s OK. Because both sides make up the same beautiful me that is here. Both sides make up what is perfectly human, imperfect in our very beings and thus reliant on something Greater than us.
I wouldn’t trade either side for anything. The pendulum will keep swinging, I just hope to keep my ass on the middle of it so I don’t fly off when it’s coming back down, or out to the side. It’s a wild ride, and I wouldn’t change a single minute of it. Thank you for riding it with me!