Thanksgiving came, and Thanksgiving went. I had a plan, and then the plan kind of had me. I had a delightful time in the woods by myself, some intimate time with Mike and his family, and then some distracted mental psychosis around food and emotional hunger and exposure and more. My plan was to […]
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I feel damned if I do, and damned if I don’t. I feel exposed or hidden. I feel arrogant and seeking, or too modest and quiet. I feel confused and defensive, while simultaneously humbled and challenged. Because I forgot that I want to. In July my shin was killing me, to the point that I
I woke up and I knew I was ready to go home. I didn’t sleep quite as soundly, I felt a twinge of anxiety, and my brain was fully awake and driving me wild. I’m rebooted. When I got to the beach on Sunday afternoon, I was done. I ate dinner in bed at 6,
“I had arrived”. That elusive idea that once I get somewhere or that once I achieve something, I will be complete. That elusive story that if only I could look like x, or feel like y, then I’d be happy. The chase to nowhere and the high to nothing. I lived that way for a
I wasn’t always health conscious, or intentional about my health. I wasn’t always driven by a combination of loving nourishment and respect. I wasn’t always open and flexible and thoughtful. In fact, for a long time, I was the polar opposite. I was almost consciously unhealthy. I was only driven by aesthetic results that waivered
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Being on zoom all day has taken me to a new level of exhaustion. I can’t read body language. I can’t sense if someone is interested based on their energetic feedback that I am usually privy to in person. Sometimes, I can’t even see them and instead have to bite my tongue to avoid spewing
It is hard to expose yourself day in and day out on social media, and I had no idea I’d have to. I wrote a book because I wanted to write a book. I wrote a book because I want to help people, and I believe my story can. I now know it’s going to
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