It’s been a few days of total awareness. It started with a walk and hearing my anxiety gain an audible pulse. It started with the remembering of our date night shifting and the attachment that it must mean something. (Please read the actual text: shifting, not what my brain said: not happening). Then it […]
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I’m calm. I feel balanced. I’m not in a hurry and I’m not attached. It’s somewhat new. I’ve been practicing hard. Not by choice at first, but willingly now. Life is grey, not black and white. Most of my life I have lived in the black and white. The all or the nothing. The best
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“I had arrived”. That elusive idea that once I get somewhere or that once I achieve something, I will be complete. That elusive story that if only I could look like x, or feel like y, then I’d be happy. The chase to nowhere and the high to nothing. I lived that way for a
I wasn’t always health conscious, or intentional about my health. I wasn’t always driven by a combination of loving nourishment and respect. I wasn’t always open and flexible and thoughtful. In fact, for a long time, I was the polar opposite. I was almost consciously unhealthy. I was only driven by aesthetic results that waivered
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