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I have the tendency, like many of us, to think that I’m not doing a good enough job.  I have the tendency to think that because of my years of studying and practicing better ways of behaving, that I should be putting them to perfect practice, at all times.  And when I don’t think I’m […]

Yes, I can be in recovery from an eating disorder while simultaneously wanting to (and actively working on) changing my body.  I can accept where I am while also want to change it.  It doesn’t mean that I am restricting, overeating, manipulating my foods to try and control my body shape and size to negatively

Yesterday I hit my wall.  I woke up still somewhat sleep deprived and as a result, down.  I didn’t recognize it as tired at first because my mind has been warping me into diving down old rabbit holes left and right, but tired for me is the plague – I can’t function as well, I’m

This is a Universal pause.  A Universal reset.  An opportunity to get everyone’s attention, all at the same time. And tremendous opportunity for growth.   Opportunity to be more present, more mindful, more thoughtful.  Opportunity to call the people you think about calling, but never actually do.  Opportunity to start text threads to check in on

I’ve been stuck in between places of neutrality and acceptance, stress and tension.  Usually writing helps, but I’ve been trying to talk to real people instead and be useful and to just be present.  I do a great job most of the time practicing what I’ve been taught and what I write about, but I

I’m tired.  Right now, I think I’m almost more tired than when I left for Mexico.  Yes, that’s right – I am almost more tired after vacation than before my free vacation. Why?  More and more I learn that I must respect those parts of myself that demand I listen.  I am an empath.  I

One month before I broke my leg, I won my one and only Ultra event.  I did an Ultra Ragnar event earlier in the year, but those were broken miles and despite very much counting (and actually hurting way worse than running straight miles), I hadn’t contested myself physically in that way.  To those close

I’ve already exceeded my before-trip goals.  It’s amazing how I haven’t paused to relish in that, and instead I’ve become greedy and wanting MORE. Our boss had us put our 2020 goals on paper, plot out the metrics to meet them and chart our course of action to get us there.  I had a great

The boot was my shield.  It gave me justification for how I was often feeling.  It gave me something to point to in order to explain my body not looking the way that I want it to.  It gave me a boost with my results at work.  It yielded a lot of attention, because breaking

I was trying to think of why I haven’t written, and I have all kinds of reasons.  I can drive now.  I can train more.  I am back to commuting some days to DC and Virginia for work.  And because I have been watching a show. Now most people need to stop watching TV, whereas