“I had arrived”. That elusive idea that once I get somewhere or that once I achieve something, I will be complete. That elusive story that if only I could look like x, or feel like y, then I’d be happy. The chase to nowhere and the high to nothing. I lived that way for a […]
I wasn’t always health conscious, or intentional about my health. I wasn’t always driven by a combination of loving nourishment and respect. I wasn’t always open and flexible and thoughtful. In fact, for a long time, I was the polar opposite. I was almost consciously unhealthy. I was only driven by aesthetic results that waivered
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Being on zoom all day has taken me to a new level of exhaustion. I can’t read body language. I can’t sense if someone is interested based on their energetic feedback that I am usually privy to in person. Sometimes, I can’t even see them and instead have to bite my tongue to avoid spewing
It is hard to expose yourself day in and day out on social media, and I had no idea I’d have to. I wrote a book because I wanted to write a book. I wrote a book because I want to help people, and I believe my story can. I now know it’s going to
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I ran my programmed 52 miles last week, and it was a lot. I was tired. And I was miserable. And I lost my joy. I didn’t lose it because I ran 52 miles. And I didn’t lose it that week. And why I lost it is not my fault. I started riding horses
I don’t eat it anymore, unless it is during my long runs on the weekend or during a competitive event where my nutritionist has prescribed me to give my body what it needs, in the form that it can be used, at that time. I don’t love it, and she knows that, but she hasn’t