I woke up and I knew I was ready to go home. I didn’t sleep quite as soundly, I felt a twinge of anxiety, and my brain was fully awake and driving me wild. I’m rebooted. When I got to the beach on Sunday afternoon, I was done. I ate dinner in bed at 6, […]
I’m calm. I feel balanced. I’m not in a hurry and I’m not attached. It’s somewhat new. I’ve been practicing hard. Not by choice at first, but willingly now. Life is grey, not black and white. Most of my life I have lived in the black and white. The all or the nothing. The best
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“I had arrived”. That elusive idea that once I get somewhere or that once I achieve something, I will be complete. That elusive story that if only I could look like x, or feel like y, then I’d be happy. The chase to nowhere and the high to nothing. I lived that way for a
Yes, of course, this connects to the obvious: I am falling in love with a man, only in real life and not in theory. Like, I’m experiencing the kind of relationship where I think: pinch me, is this really the person I’m partnered with today and on the same page with in both short and
I really am the problem. I am my irritation. I am my anger. I am my paralysis by analysis. I am my fear. I am the only version of the truth as I can see it, and all of the formerly mentioned are simply extended versions of that truth, in the moment. Me being the