I know the signs: fatigue, resistance, tiredness, repulsion. I know it because I lived it for many years, pushing it down until I could no longer deny how it felt. Many are obsessed with the idea that work must be filled with passion, purpose, and overwhelming love. Many are sold with the notion that you …
“I had arrived”. That elusive idea that once I get somewhere or that once I achieve something, I will be complete. That elusive story that if only I could look like x, or feel like y, then I’d be happy. The chase to nowhere and the high to nothing. I lived that way for a …
I just posted a video about body image, and the me that is learning how to filter and edit and hone my social media marketing craft wishes I had said something different than I did, but hindsight is always expensive. I had remarked that I thought healthy body image would produce an unconditional love for …
I wasn’t always health conscious, or intentional about my health. I wasn’t always driven by a combination of loving nourishment and respect. I wasn’t always open and flexible and thoughtful. In fact, for a long time, I was the polar opposite. I was almost consciously unhealthy. I was only driven by aesthetic results that waivered …
Being on zoom all day has taken me to a new level of exhaustion. I can’t read body language. I can’t sense if someone is interested based on their energetic feedback that I am usually privy to in person. Sometimes, I can’t even see them and instead have to bite my tongue to avoid spewing …
It is hard to expose yourself day in and day out on social media, and I had no idea I’d have to. I wrote a book because I wanted to write a book. I wrote a book because I want to help people, and I believe my story can. I now know it’s going to …
I ran my programmed 52 miles last week, and it was a lot. I was tired. And I was miserable. And I lost my joy. I didn’t lose it because I ran 52 miles. And I didn’t lose it that week. And why I lost it is not my fault. I started riding horses …
I’ve had several bad body image days, strung together in a succession of about 3 weeks now. And just as I started to hit my boiling point, I decided to be brutally honest with my coaches, and 2 of my close running friends who are also females and talented athletes. I have been sharing how …
I’m about to ask for help from a professional in order to get my book out into the world. And I’m scared. I’m scaredthat I’m not worthy of promoting my book at the level it deserves. I’m scaredthat I will be judged for trying to make my book bigger than a backyard social media sale. …
35. Once upon a time, that seemed incredibly old to me. It was not only old, but out of reach. As a drug addicted teen and narrowly focused girl, I didn’t expect to live, or want to live, beyond 27. Thinking back on that makes me so sad, but also brings tremendous compassion to those …