I thought I was mad. I thought I was fat. I thought I had to change a routine that’s been working for me for some time now. I thought I had something to fix. About myself, about my circumstances, about the shit I think I see and have something to do about. But I wasn’t, […]
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I really am the problem. I am my irritation. I am my anger. I am my paralysis by analysis. I am my fear. I am the only version of the truth as I can see it, and all of the formerly mentioned are simply extended versions of that truth, in the moment. Me being the
Just keep going. I have thought a lot about this over the last few days, as the pull is to “start over” with the all too familiar New Year’s resolutions. I don’t want that anymore. I don’t want to keep resolving to do things differently- I want to keep going. I want to tweak some
I underestimate what it takes; what it takes to run on less sleep than I prefer, what it takes to climb when the rest of my body is tired, what it takes to lift when I’m already spent. I underestimate what it takes to be present for each and every moment of my day; each
Don’t be in such a hurry, Alison. I wish that novelty came from my own sense of wellness, but it didn’t. It came from an external source, a voice of reason, that can have an unbiased and unattached observation of my running away from whatever it is I am afraid, which usually results in a
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For many of us, the Holidays are hard. For me, Christmas especially. I don’t know what it is (other than the litany of movies and societal notions and childhood fantasies imprinted in my mind), but I have this Hallmarkesque idea in my head of how things should be, how they should look, and how they
Everyone seeks. Not everyone tells. I tell it. It was hard to pick a website name. You wouldn’t think it’d be that serious, but if you know me, I tend to make everything that fucking serious and that is both an asset, and a liability. My old website was easy: alisonhaase.com. Plan A was to
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